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Speak  listen Loves yuting vithiya jiesi sharon ling yunxuan meiling shuang ying ruth peiting candy wan teng zihui SHOPS Elle's Looking Glass Baisimu Long gone Credits Base code:P3a Image: Deviantart | Saturday, May 31  - hookey pookey - Came back from camp yesterday.. Ahaha..damn tiring but fun.. Took on swiss cottage sec 2 people. and the 1st and 2nd day just killed me.. 1st day was a hike from their school all the way to dairy farm! Like what on earth?? Then 2nd day was the great cow chase (hike up bukit timah hill if i'm not wrong abt the place) and dragon boating! hahah..3rd and 4th day was ok.. Not that bad cause i dont remember doing anything that vigorous..hahahh I think i'm not enthu enough cause people keep saying i look sleepy all the time :X oh well..but my kids were alright though there were some really mischievous people.. There were alot of kids who wanted to try out the flying fox station but no time and our group was the last to go so my kids were damn grouchy and unhappy.. They were frowning and complaining downright.. Then i was like asking this naughty kid in my group if he can maybe try out rock climbing during the waiting time and he said something like "ok la, i dont want to make your job difficult" So sweet!ahahah.. Then at the last day of camp they were supposed to fill up the evaluation form but i forgot to ask them to write what they felt about the trainer(AKA ME), the buddy trainer and our camp chiefs. So sad..cannot read their comments..dratsTomorrow i'm gonna get some highlights with vithiya and her sis!!!!! Hope it turns out good!:)) Just read your blog This is for you vithiya.. I know its hard not to be upset but at least she's not in pain now. and i do believe you've brought joy into her life, as much as she had brought joy into yours. That is what really matters.  loving you now at 9:43 PM  Friday, May 23 - reflections - I came here to remember something. haha..so now theres a post...a long one...you've been warned! On to another issue, somewhat linked...but anyway, just read your blog. It made me remember something important that i'd forgotten for the past few months. I HAVE MY GUARDIAN ANGELS RIGHT BESIDE ME!!! and then it took me back to old times.. Sec one, it was a new environment and i didnt know anyone in class except for ruishan. Then i made some friends, i sat with them, made small talks, became good friends with some people, pat sum, yuting, sharon ling, eunice, janice, yizhen etc etc. I joined the band there and had a kickass wonderful section. There were times we had disagreements and stuff but nothing too serious. I remember how meisum and jingjing were in band too and how the sec ones had a smashing time while the seniors were having their combined prac. The marching sessions we had on sat and the many practices. Then sec two swooped down and it was the same thing over through. Same environment, same group of people, same teachers. Nothing different. Then sec three and four came and i got shifted into g3, with paula, jiesi and jayashri. I thought i was gonna die there cause the people knew each other and i was not close to any of them. hahah, but i made new friends and it went fine. yeah, got to know vithiya which is really a blessing. Then ah mah and the rest during chinese lessons. In the same year, my friendship with a close friend (at that time) soured. We didnt patch up. My bad. So then, o levels and i headed off to my next leap. IB. New new new new new environment. I cant emphasize it enough. ac guys. mg girls. sc girls. The sarcasms, smart people, cliques. I freaked out cause people there were damn outspoken. My previous raves and rants were not entirely untrue. Got into a bcmecons/business class there. Met people like xinhui, steph, jessica, nat etc. Five words to summarize my life there -- caught up in the smarts. Really, god i felt stupid. Superficial relationships with people there, kinda like a hi bye thing. I just didnt know what to say. Some people i knew changed, voice changed for the sweeter note, acted bimbotic. So i just stoned for two years. And after it passed, i took a job in ite dover. Way too boring. But now i wonder why i quit. met new people..i refuse to comment on my feelings there cause it'd probably be false anyway. So here i am now, msn and stuff, lying on the floor, typing, reminiscing the long gone. I cant believe i'm waiting so patiently for the darn caterpillar to moult. sometimes i wish you'd budge. You'd never know how much i knew. randomness.. loving you now at 7:10 PM Thursday, May 22 - wasting my time like.. - Came back from camp yesterday night and boy, it felt GOOOOOOOOD! Cant believe a 2 day 1 night camp was that tiring.. Hahah, the fellow instructors there were damn funny.. Was stationed at the washing point during dinner last night and we had to hurry the kids when the queue gets longer.. The kids were supposed to just wash their plates and utensils in a basin filled with soap water, then go on to the sink to rinse. Hahah..and some kids were still meticulously washing every speck of dirt off their plates.. Dont know why but it was really funny looking at the plates or bowl they brought Oh well...and after the trek and everything, my toe is pain as £$?@*&*% now!! hurt it while playing badminton on mon, the nail got injured and its bloody bruised..dammit Ok, dont think i'd use the com that much cause i'm officially unemployed!! hahah, so basically that means...no time set for unlimited supply of internet utility. YUP, so thats fer now loving you now at 1:06 PM Monday, May 19 - happy birthday to a dear friend - To Yew jie si : Since i didnt get to make you a card, just treat this like one yeah? since the content's probably the same.. hahah..here goes -- Hello YEW JIE SI!!! Happy 19th birthday! May your bday be filled with joy and laughter!! 4 and a half years already(not 6 and a half OK), and our friendship's still going strong! :)) Hooray! WEILING LOVES JIESI!! I know you know that Love, Wei Ling Hahah..think the only difference is the drawings that i'd make to the card.. that said, HAPPY BIRTHDAY once more dear friend!! loving you now at 9:03 AM Tuesday, May 13 - a thousand-million penny - Was thinking bout some things on the way back.. No penny for my thoughts. I cant help but feel so shallow at times.. I hate it that while i'm working to feed my materialistic desires, there are yet others out there who cant even make enough to feed themselves. I hate it that i can spend my money so freely while others scrimp and save to stay alive. I hate it that when i feel life sucks, i'd tell myself there're people out there worse off than me. I hate it that i can be so mindful of such reality and even as i type this, make no effort to do anything.. Just chuck them to a corner..nice and snug.. yeah, i understand now, what it means. Out of sight, out of mind.. Until one fine day i'm caught in the same situation, i'd hope for people around me to be more generous with their love.. But love for mankind is a little too overrated, coming from human beings, that is. To love's to accept people for who they are, thats what you get reading quotes and stuff from writers. But i think thats hard cause we, as people, set standards, acceptable standards at the very least. Thinking back, schools proclaim they accept students. But then again acceptance might only be meant for words..cause in this world, we dont accept, we judge. Face it, we do, every single little details, be it our standard of english, skin colour, occupation or intellect. To be truthful, i hate it the way some people judge, how some people in school fawn over expressed intellect. yeah, i'd bet you're judging me now as you read and i thank you if you dont though thats quite rare. People are selfish creatures..i am selfish, i dont deny.. and thats bad, real bad. i'm so tired now the guilt's drilling into me.. Sigh.. I dont know where to continue now, I think i'd just leave it as it is. i know the time portrayed is around 9 plus but the time is wrong. its friggin 10 plus now. So, Goodnight to the humble you. loving you now at 9:02 PM Monday, May 12 - tell me how - Forum's got me thinking about the psychology i applied for. Should i do it in ntu or nus?? I mean, i heard ntu's psy is rather good but nus's considered reputable right? Oh crap and now i dont even know if psy is good for me. Theres just no space in spore for psychologists, is there? They'd probably survive on just doctors, lawyers and teachers alone.. what sunny singapore On a brighter tone, I BROUGHT MY SKETCH PAD TO WORK!! hahahah..know its like nothing amazing..but it is! at least for me! YEAH!!!I can finally DO SOMETHING during work!    The last one's not complete though..its kinda empty.. The ink ran out..really..hahahh so there And after doing SO many things and thinking so much today.. its only bloody 5?!!! ahhhhhhhh how to live like that?? ok.. that was an exhilarating ahhhhhhhhh, not an its-hell-in-here ahhhhhhhh. yeah, i'm pretty sure about that.. loving you now at 4:12 PM Tuesday, May 6 - Right now - Tomorrow! Yeah.cant wait! I wanna be a camp facilitator! Ahahah Little children, beware.. So anyway, heres a peek at the mundane life i'm leading right now Look what boredom's got me into..  yeah..i had that much time but the academy's everything we had is amazing hahah, their mv's rather cool go watch.. AND, this is pretty much how i coped . . . LIM YOUUU TING!!!    yeah, that way, i lived.. or so says miss lim.. hahahaa damn shag now.. i'm gonna retire to bed and drift off to some...fancy drea ok,hahah.. screw what i just said..i'm gonna sleep. simple does it loving you now at 8:23 PM |
